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May 1, 2013

Tender thoughts at 35 weeks!




Greetings this windy morning. 

While sitting over coffee, with my belly exposed, the MVP mentioned "It's going to be weird to see you NOT pregnant." I couldn't help but agree. NOT pregnant? The words almost seem foreign which is SO bizarre because long ago pregnant seemed so distant. 
Now, I'm approaching the end of growing her inside and soon expected to help her grow outside... in this crazy world. 
I blame it on the exhaustion and pregnancy but emotions are running wild these days. 
There are moments I catch myself praying it's over soon; those moments are followed by guilt. 
Then I catch myself staring at my belly, feeling her move, dreaming about what a miracle this is; those moments are followed by happy tears, true tender moments. 
I wish someone could give me all the answers... A guidebook to how I'm supposed to feel physically, mentally, and spiritually. 
This has been such a growing (literally) experience and I can only imagine what's yet to come. 
Although the books tell me I have 5 weeks to go, I'm quite curious what God has in store for our family. 
Perhaps it could be the full 5 weeks but in my heart (and my body) I don't think it will be. Which means, subtract a few weeks, making it 3. 
WOW!
I could be wrong, the beauty and curse is that I have NO IDEA. However, my prayers above remain constant. 
Give me patience, Lord. Overwhelm me with gratitude and praise, Lord. And, keep our little family safe and sweet these next few weeks. 

This experience is one I will NEVER forget; an experience I'm forever grateful for. 
My heart aches for those who cannot conceive, have lost a child, or are suffering major difficulty during pregnancy. My prayers are for you, too. 

All my love, this day.

Oh, and baby Ireland, I love you. 

14 comments

  1. How sweet. Thank you for sharing. :)

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  2. I'm 37 weeks and sooo ready to be done too!! yet at the same time, just don't want it to end because the thought of not being pregnant any more is so weird...and a little scary! But we can do it!!! :)

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    1. We are almost there! You never know, maybe our little ones will share a birthday! Wishing you the best of luck... I'll be waiting to hear the birth story! :]

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    1. Thank you for reading AND for the encouraging comment :]

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  4. beautiful photo and words too. praying for you in these last couple of weeks, it's hard to wait for something you've dreamed and prayed so much about!
    Whitney
    Life Alaskan Style 

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    1. You got it right, it's hard to wait! Patience is very much in my prayers :] Thanks for the prayers, Whitney!

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  5. So excited for you three! You're going to make an awesome momma :) well wishes always!

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    1. Thank you thank you thank you!!! I HOPE so! Thanks for reading and I hope you are doing WONDERFULLY!!!!!

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  6. This is so nice. I recently lost my daughter at 34w4d and it was hard knowing that I should still be pregnant after I had her. We never know what God has in store and I'm glad I got to spend those 34 weeks with her in my tummy and I wish she was here. I love your post and it is well said.

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    1. Rochelle, my heart broke when I read this comment. First, thank you for reading and commenting, especially after going through so much yourself. I'm amazed at your grace and understanding...I can't say I'd be as understanding as you. God works in incredible and mysterious ways however, it doesn't take the pain away! Stay strong and stay on your knees...God has you and your family well kept! Thank you again for reaching out and sharing your experience. I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. Praying for you :]

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  7. Beautiful. The last few weeks of pregnancy were pretty magical for me.. I loved being preggo and the excitement of when and where was so much fun. I hope you have a great last few weeks!!

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    1. Thanks for reading and commenting, Meagan! This is SO exciting...such a waiting game! Thanks for sticking with me through it!

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